3rd birthday soon
It's been a while since I have wrote a post, not because I haven't wanted to, but things get in the way. My phone lock screen is a picture of Oliver, so I see him everyday and I think about him every day. Not that I have ever not thought about Oliver, but I am even more so with his 3rd birthday fast approaching. Allot of thoughts go through my mind, mostly why did this happen, why did it have to happen, and what can I do to honour his memory. I finally got back into kickboxing after a good half a year off and it's exactly what I needed. I started going to kickboxing after Oliver passed, it was a way for me to be able to express my anger and guilt, also to just relive built up furtsration. I spoke to myself in the gym last night when I hit that wall, where the idea of one more push up was one to far. I though how my boy faught like a warrior, a champion and if he could show such strength and resilience then why couldn't I do the same. I pushed because he did, and how I